It's funny, sometimes ridiculous even how much you can learn from someone younger. I've never ever thought someone could instill so much hope in me, a dying dream. Their faith encourages me and I feel like me again, like I can do anything. Call it naivety, call it childish but that's exactly why we all need some of this. To blindly walk on a path and put all trust in God, to experience some sort of fear but also a reassurance that we'll make it out of this alive. It's the childlike wonder I've lost, and long to grasp once again. I ask for it again but I guess He gives in forms of people.
And God has been good, He has put good people around me and I know you know who. It's you :) I never do say thank you enough. Thank you(s).
Now, I realised I can't go yet, no not yet. It wasn't His calling, just me always wanting to escape. It's funny how when I thought I could just drop everything and leave. But He isn't finished with me here. I am not finished with me. But when that time calls, I hope I'll have that courage myself. That final confirmation, reaffirmation, one final push. No what ifs, just go.
No what ifs, just go.
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