Warm In Heart

Yesterday, the cutest little Malay boy ever waved at me and it made me warm and happy. I guess little things still do excite me.

In a lighter mood today, thank God. :) Light's seeping in more through this stained glass today.

Only the shadows of a shadow

The one who is tickled by the smallest things. The one who doesn't care how the world views, sees, or judges. The one who doesn't worry too much and is not afraid to surrender. The one who doesn't have to decide between her heart and head.

Where did I go?
I want to be that happy girl again.

Que Sera, Sera

Half awake in the car with the same Hillsong CD playing over and over again each day. It has now become a familiar, comfortable even, routine. My thinking sanctuary and has possibly morphed into my if not only, one of few comfort zone. Accompanied by the Sun in Its slow ascend up, yet to shine in all fiery glory; a new day gifted by grace. It is the hope of a new day. What could go wrong? What could go wrong?

You

Maybe it was always going to be you.

Maze

So nice to see people doing what they love and passionate for. What the hell am I doing in A-levels? What the hell am I even doing? I feel warm in my heart seeing people chasing the dream and at the same time I feel so so selfish. I WANT that. Why do they get to find out their direction when I am lost? I've done everything right up till now or at least I think I did. Is this my dream? Or is this dream for me?

Tear

Is this really our time of trial? This generation? I love you so so much, as my best friend, as a fellow dreamer, thinker, the one who understands the same thing that I do. Maybe we're too much alike, maybe that was why we never were meant for each other from the start. And I thank God for that because you're one of my best friends now. It is painful to see you suffering this much and that I never knew beyond your mask. You make stupid jokes about everything, about me and laugh like an idiot and all this while, you were trying to help me to get through. I feel selfish.

I wish I had that passion like yours. And I pray your tears will not be lost.

From a best friend.

2: Counting

So much to be thankful for. Learning to appreciate. Tough one!

By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

The Walking Dead

I've been so hooked on The Walking Dead(and finished the second season already YAY) recently. It is just your typical unlogical zombie apocalypse show(in which i question a lot of things) which feeds your pure, gory zombie needs and it is awesome. :D And my only problems are:

1. I am stressed out of ma pants. (by the "walkers" AND the fact that Season 3 is not coming fast enough!)

2. Everyone is starting to have an attitude on the show.

3. Korean boy is TOO CUTE.

Road Bump

A little curious, maybe some butterflies but, un-nervous. God is good and He will love me the same no matter what. Saving just a little space for disappointment tho. Hehe. Hopefully it ends well, but if not, who cares, it really isn't the end. The end, is much more beautiful. Goodnight! :)

Found

That one thing, it makes me so happy. Am I really ready to leave normal behind?

Temporary

The days are getting better. Quiet, even. No runaway thoughts. Thanks for the rest, mind. Thank You God.

1: Forgive

I think I can finally say that I've learnt to forgive you. I'm sorry and I forgive you.

What's New

Hello hello. :)
Been a while since I typed so furiously on a keyboard. Soouu..

I'm a college girl now!! :) Oh how time flies. To be honest, it's pretty much school; I still wake up at 5.30, STILL struggle my ass off bed, STILL sleeping in the toilet and STILL running late, just fun-er.

Second! I am so un-last minute-y now like you wouldn't believe!

Third, I am (quite literally) terrorizing the road now. ;)

So, life has been much tougher now. I think this is really my time of "wilderness". But God is tougher. See you on the other side. :)