Happy birthday love.

Weddings

Everyone knows I love weddings. I love love. And I love being part of it, everything. And to have very few relatives and they're either married way before or they're not going to anytime soon, it makes me sad. So to be invited to Jeff and Grace's, YES. And to be asked to sing for them, happy beyond words. This made me so happy today. Just yes yes yes. How long has it been that I can finally look forward to something.

People hear but they can't listen

How do I tell people that I'm lonely even when I'm not alone? That I'm breaking surely from the inside and everything's going to show, that I've become self centred for once and I don't care about people anymore, I don't want to keep them. That I don't know how much longer I can live like this, waiting but I don't know what I'm waiting for and I'm scared, angry because I can't convince myself anymore. I can't.

Monochrome monologues

Funny how I am a girl of words who can work, play around them rather easy but fail to verse them. Immensely frustrating. Back to my solitude ball of monologue, I go.