Things have been going so well at home that it's almost unbelievable. My family now is everything I've always wanted from someone else's and we can only thank God. Everything being ok just makes me want to run away even more. Like I can leave without worrying about the other kids. I need to start my future somewhere else, I need to find myself, I need to know what I want. I don't belong here, in college, in A-levels. Been crying more than not these few days and for no reason. My mood changes so abruptly it's quite scary. I am possibly bipolar. But I really need to just go somewhere. The idea of being in a foreign country and recklessly ambitious is really nice. Gives me a different kind of hope.
"New York, concrete jungle where dreams are made of. There's nothing you can't do."
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