Surrounded

Some days feel more alone than others. Some days feel like giving up.

Why I Zone Out So Much

I have found a lot of comfort zones. Like how I suddenly realised why I used to be (and still is) able to just play Minesweeper the entire day was because I found comfort in it. I cease thoughts, concentrate on little tiles trying to avoid bombs. Or how I always, ALWAYS play Bubble Buster over and over and over again. Or Tetris, when I needed to get out of the world for a mo. I don't not have a life, I'm just a bit tired of life I guess. And of course there are the lovely line of friends I have whom recently, I've found more comfort in than the games.

Cry

I want to be a singer. I don't want to be scrutinized. I don't want to be a hit. I don't want to be flocked by people all the time. I don't want people to treat me differently. I just wanna share, I just wanna sing you know.

This Faith

One thing I have always known since young was that God has always granted me favours in my studies. Eventhough I was always lazy. Eventhough I wasn't the hardest worker in the shed, God has always granted me good results. And sometimes I get really scared that if I sinned, He'll someday take away the magic that has blessed me. But this, I am very very grateful for.

Beautiful Babies

SHEEEEEETTTTTTT. They're back! T.T

Search

"One thing about God is that He is easy to find." -Desperate Housewives

18

You know when they say you find yourself when you're 18? I thought I lost myself when I turned 18. I didn't know myself anymore at 18. I thought God had left me on the sidewalk, didn't want me and my crap anymore. Like a parent would, gave up on me. I stopped believing, maybe.

I remember though on my birthday two years ago, on the 8th of June, I did something I probably will regret until the day I die out of pure anger. Then, I also felt God left me even after I prayed and prayed.

But He proved me wrong again with His wisdom. Then it hit me a few days ago, SO MUCH has changed since then, I learnt to forgive, my prayer took life bit by bit. I was so caught up with something else that I didn't see the other blessing and I can only ask; How does He know when the right time is??

 

 

                                                                                                                 

Hello Time!

Hai guiseeee! The holidays are doing me good. Plenty of time to think, bercouch potato-ing and sleepz!

So yesterday the (slightly autistic, some more than others) kids of class PM14 went to La-la-laaagooooonnn! It's really been a while since I've been there and this could possibly be the first time with da friends. Honestly, I've been loving my class more these days. I had my doubts the first few weeks, I didn't think I'd like them that much but I'm glad I do now. Bryan, the loud and sometimes autistic kid. Ee Jian, boy who counted his name wrongly. And even Alvin, super nerd who isn't all that nerd after all. :)

It was great! With the bad haze and hot crap weather, the cold water felt really good. I want to say that it was relaxing but it wasn't! I came back with a migraine and REALLY SORE LIMBS THAT I  COULDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT. HAHA. This really says something about my fitness level actually. :D

• A PM14 holiday ✓

Sou, that leaves

• Writing up my long-postponed-that if I do not pass up again my teacher is going to eat me-testimonial by this Sat night. A decent one. Yeap no problem.
• Watch at least half of Game of Thrones and Desperate Housewives or Saphna is going to spoil the damn ending!
• Read at least half of the first book of Sherlock LAWL I KNOW. MY SLOW READING HABIT IS BACK.
• Catch up with the canteen gang! OMG IT HAZ BEEN FOREVER.
• Do a good amount of thinking, planning, something.
• Rebuild a relationship with God.

Okay, so this is where I stop and say I'm being realistic here with the halves and everything! Haha. I have two weeks SO CALL ME teeehee.