I think I've been getting by better these days. Everyday doesn't feel like a regret or a mistake anymore. It now feels safe and in simple terms, normal. Normal is what I long for now, not routined, not boring, just normal. Then again, I ask myself, am I really ready to leave normal behind? But let's leave that to God for now, He knows best.
I am glad that this Good Friday/Resurrection Sunday has finally come to a close. I kind of miss it honestly, it's been a part of me for a while; watching reruns of Jesus/Joseph falling over and over again, hearing my own song, getting sick of my own song(LOL), wanting to try Joylynn's song, getting scared under Ps. Joshua's close scrutiny, I do miss it all. Speaking of which, I can never comprehend how God is all-knowing. He knows what I really need and when I do need it and the play, was what I really needed. Thinking back when Sis. Kim actually approached me, I didn't want to do it what with my future crisis and my depressed state but of course, with her smiles, who would say no? Who COULD say no? Haha. But hey, turns out to be one of the greatest blessing in my life. It took me out of the path of self-destruction, pulled me back to God and put my focus back to whom it belongs to; God. And if any, He gave me confirmations. That my time will come.
I feel grateful for so much today! One being the many great people around me. Blessed Resurrection Day, everyone! I believe it's never too late because Jesus is alive everyday. I must not take life for granted again. Who dares to say everyday's a mistake when such a price has been paid for each day? Not me, :D
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